向左走，向右走？

从中一起，就与几位好友立志要考得上。不知觉间，大家一起经历了许多风风雨雨。很多人事物，也随着时间转变。四年了，我现在站在一个十字路口上，以为可以鼓起勇气，擦干泪水，继续往前走。可是，不知从什么时候，它变成了我的累赘，我对它开始厌倦了。没关系，我还是告诉自己，为了自己，为了他人，继续往前走。慢慢的，感觉心力交瘁，越来越力不从心。但是停下脚步想想，我现在的身份，真的容许我做出选择？想了又想，哭了又哭，到头来还是得不到我要的答案。就因为无法释怀，这件事缠绕了我许久，多么的想抛开它，很可惜我做不到。此时此刻，已经到了必须果断地做出决定的时候。可笑的是，我的心，还是七上八下，久久未能平复，感觉压力得很，是自己施给自己的压力。就这样目瞪口呆地，眺望着茫然的远方，迷惘的前路。

也不知道多少天了，我不停地告诉自己不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不。。。要。。。放。。。弃。原来，我没有做出这个决定的勇气。怕后悔，怕遗憾，怕面对，怕承担。又原来，我是一只比宿头乌龟都不如的人。我很累。

依然站在分叉路口的我，到底应该，向左走，向右走？

皇家女童军，对我而言，是何物？

:'(.................................

-失去方向的有心人-

=(

When will I ever see through the veil?

When will the facade end?

When will the masks unravel?

When will naive me see this world as it really is?

Sighs.

Complicated.

=)

It's not that disappointing afterall =). I find back my way in guides, the spirit in guides. Finally, i'm no longer despairing.

Cheerios =)

-MT-

Some people are just hypocrites.
Bloody hypocrites. ><

=D

Even with only the four of us, today's meeting was damn noisy and definitely funny. =D

Furthermore, you guys actually agreed with the crazy ideas I proposed.

Love you guys. ;)

My sub-commander, first-aider and quarter master ^^.

I reply MT and add more stuff

Why didn't I think of writing here instead of squishing everything into the cbox. OK, now to continue.

Yes! What we want is to bring the fun in guiding back. Since when has everything started revolving around badges and exams? (not that they're not important since I am taking QG as well) Since when have we stopped goofing off and tried to act serious? Why are there so many meaningless projects coming? And, since it's private let me just rant out a bit, why are the names so NOT catchy? Ascension of the phoenix? Still ok, though not catchy la. Unlock the Epoch? ..... I'm not even sure what epoch means? past? present? any timeline? Epoch =Ipok?== And Black Jack as the night gathering theme? This is not prom la! Aiyoh! Even if black jack is also called 21, the main focus is our night gathering, which I don't think even has 10 years of history. Black Jack gives me the impression of tuxes, rollette wheels....gambling!

Ok, back to the topic. Where is the fun? I want water balloons! I want us to just laze around and crap! Heck, working would be fine too if we could go wild while doing it. Sighs, makes me miss BRATs so much. We were doing our assignments halfway and my group decided to camwhore. Causing a chain reaction that ended up in a group pic of us all.^^

So to my permit ppl.Though none of you will see this== since it's private and all and you're not invited readers, I still write it and I may say this again on Monday at our meeting. My sub-kem, you guys are the best people I could ever choose to work with. Sure you guys aren't COH(except Jia). You all never experienced what the COH did. SO what? I can work well with you all and that's what matters? I remember during a meeting on Friday. Jie Min wanted to see me and Sonia's members. Sonia wanted to take one of us(Thank god that never happened) but Jie Min said we were just right, we weren't that good also. As Li Lin said, she might jsut be helping us from being separated or she might really think that. But, I think it's not about how good the people are initially, it's about how you bring out their talents and apply them properly. And I couldn't have asked for better comrades. We will rock, ok guys? We will laugh throughout the camp and get everything done with thorough efficiciency! I will try my best to make sure of that. You guys will fall victims to the Algorithm March!!! And I need to get maskin tape! =D We will be so high, sleep will be a burden==. We will speak different languages each day, force feed the leftovers to whoever didn't finish their work in time and most importantly, we MUST be happy.

I mean, what's that much to gloat about if I pass permit and you all never had any fun in the process? I would still fail as a leader if you all suffered to achieve my goals. As I''m the ONE asking YOU guys to help me. I should at least make it worth your trouble. I still want water balloons. No thinking required. Fill up balloon. Throw. Run. Damn whoever restricts this. (yeah, i know who it is) *whistles*

If we succeed, karaoke then?

<3 you guys. But please, don't cause me trouble too. It's a mutual thing, alright?

Zhi Min

Lost Generation- Jonathan Reed

'I realise this may be a shock but

"Happiness comes from within"

is a lie, and

"Money will make me happy"

So in 30 years I will tell my children

they are not the most important thing in my life.

My employer will know that

I have my priorities straight because

work

is more important than

family

I tell you this

Once upon a time

Families stayed together

but this will not be true in my era

this is a quick fix society

Experts tell me

30 years from now I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce

I do not concede that

I will live in a country of my own making

In the future

Environmental destruction will be the norm

No longer can it be said that

My peers and I care about this earth

It will be evident that

My generation is apathetic and lethargic

It is foolish to presume that

There is hope.



And all of this will come true unless we choose to rewrite it.

(now read backwards :P)

See guys, we can make a change. It's just a matter of how you look at things.We will not be the lost generation!